How am I to know?

A part of me has died,

When you said goodbye to me,

A part of me has died,

When you turn your back away.

How am I to know?

How am I to understand?

How am I to comprehend?

All the loving words.

All the promises.

All the silly jokes.

It all vanished.

What will ever remain?

Do you ever deny yourself?

Of the self of loving me?

Do you ever deny yourself?

Of the self of accepting me?

Do you ever deny yourself?

Of a self of embracing me?

How am I to know?

How am I to understand?

How am I to co pretend?

A love that beyond this world.

A love that never dies.

A love that does not turn away.

A part of me has died.

And being born again,

Into a new world,

A world of eternal love.

That will stay with me forever.

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Looking…

Everyone is looking for something,

Someone to understand,

Someone to comprehend,

Someone to be by your sides,

Someone to lean on when you cry.

Someone to help you shine.

Someone to help you fly.

Someone who never deny,

Everyone is looking for something,

Is it a thing or is it someone?

Is it touchable or measurable?

For that very something…

Just keep looking…

Looking…

Keep looking,

And you will find it,

In your heart

And in your soul,

Believe it,

And you will see it.

One day,

For that special something,

For that special someone…

Who will never walk away…

Who will always stand by my side,

In good times and in bad times.

When You Love Someone,

When You Love someone,

And you can’t be with the person,

Does that mean your love is lessen?

Will it grow weary and die off?

That’s why the best test of true love,

Is time and distance.

Only true love can sustain time,

Only true love can win distance,

Time and distance…

Love…

When You Love Someone,

When you truly love someone,

You don’t have to be with the person.

As long as the person is happy.

You would feel happy as well.

My heart hurt and wounded,

Because of the break up.

But if it brings him happiness.

Then let it be.

Let it be.

One day,

He will realize.

That my love for him,

Was real and enduring.

Regardless of his change of heart,

Regardless of his perception about me,

After all,

It’s just a perception,

It may not reflect the truth.

And the truth is my love still remains.

It may sound so sad…

But this is how my heart feels.

Will I move on?

Will I find another one?

Yes I have already moved on,

Moved on with my life,

But do I want to find another one?

I’m not just someone,

Who want to date around.

And I’m not interested,

In dating for the sake of it.

I just want to be,

With my true lover,

With my soul mate,

With the love of my life.

Would it be too unreal?

No.

If you believe it,

The universe will send you,

And reveal itself,

Who your true lover is,

Who your soul mate is,

Who the love of your life is…

All I need to do,

Is just to be patient,

And to wait…

And one day…

One day…

I will find my true love again.

And I’m not talking about him.

Because if it was him,

He wouldn’t leave me.

The fact that he left me,

Says a lot,

About his love for me.

Wasn’t enough.

Like what he said.

Indeed,

Perhaps,

He even doesn’t know what true love is,

And he never truly know how to love.

Truly,

Madly,

Deeply

In love…

If he already is with someone,

Then I don’t feel regret or sad…

Because he never truly loved.

Because he’s just another bad guy,

That hurting women….

A Phone Call,

A phone call,

Returning my message,

Asking how I am,

To show I am cared.

Touches me.

Even though,

It was just a friend.

Some tears,

Streaming down…

After all,

It’s human connections,

That we need.

That we long for…

After all,

Even though,

It’s just a phone call,

It’s very little,

But it gives me hope.

Hope of something,

That God has in store for me,

Because,

I am loved.

Because,

I am blessed.

Starting All Over Again,

At the age of thirty three,

I’m staring my life all over again.

At the age of thirty three,

There has been so many changes.

At the age of thirty three,

A whole new world awaits for me.

Endless possibilities,

Countless opportunities.

My life is starting all over again.

This time,

I take it slower,

I breath it all in,

Every second,

Every moment,

This time,

I sunk myself in,

Deep down in the oceans,

The oceans of Mercy,

The oceans of Love.

Jesus,

God!

Faith,

Belief,

Oh how beautiful!

With so many hopes!

Hope,

Awaiting love,

Awaiting home,

Heaven.

Love,

Speechless.

At the age of thirty three,

I found myself once again!

 

Looking,

Everyone is looking for something,

Something that can fill their hearts,

Something that seem to be missing,

Missing in the moments of darts.

Everyone is looking for something,

Something that seem to be real,

Something that seem to be long lasting,

Lasting forever more.

Everyone is looking for something,

Something that satisfy,

Something that fortify,

Everyone is looking for something,

Is it love?

Is it beauty?

What is it?

What that is?

A true love,

That I am looking for,

For something,

Or someone,

That can truly love me,

And accept me,

A true love,

May be it is a thing,

I just don’t know,

Everyone is looking for something,

And I am just keep looking,

And looking…

And looking…